Of all the things that go unsaid.

2012-01-31T19:32:00.002-05:00

i wish i had wings.
and
the heart of a child.

coming home
to an empty apartment
with
open cabinet doors
and
shower curtain.

don't you know
that
towel is for show?

the smell of death
and
nag champa
and
the empty space
where
your suitcase once
lay.

a forgotten toothbrush.

and a string of yarn
in
the
shape of a heart.

a note.
in pencil.

on our backs.

meet me in chicago.
or austin.
or
west islip, ny.

love me in the spring time.

that's where i'll be waiting.

2012-01-26T21:50:00.002-05:00

my feet are on fire.
and
i'm crying my eyes out.

over the things that i have done.
that
i wouldn't have done.
that
i shouldn't have done.
that
oh
what does it matter?

i have a motorcycle helmet
and
a rotting pineapple.

a sink of dirty dishes
and
all i want to do is sleep.

this is what happens
when
you believe
a ruby tuesdays waitress.

moondoggies- night day

2012-01-26T15:20:00.000-05:00

2012-01-25T00:26:00.003-05:00

abnormal pineapple day.

dancing in the dark
in
a lutheran church basement
with
stars floating around my head
and
in my eyes
and
under sweaty armpits.

typical, brooklyn.

booking a flight
to
bangkok
in the middle of the night.

and

mixing chemicals
to kill roaches.

singing
saves the day
with the pizza guy
unapologetically.

achy body
and
the smell of
eucalyptus.

2012-01-23T23:52:00.002-05:00

i am
going to
Shanghai

by means
of Thailand.

by means
of a romantic
Italian adventure

we forgot to take.

we'll always have Jersey City.
and
dating websites.
and
cute girl friends.
and
stunning sunsets.
and
bollywood video shoots.
and
a rainy island in the middle of lake george.

2012-01-23T21:55:00.002-05:00

i want
eggs with a side of eggs.

i want
to throw my phone
out the drivers side window.

i want
to go out to dinner
when someone asks.

even if i know i shouldn't.

i want
to dance til 3am
after watching bball
and
eating dominos
and
hanging out in swanky apartments.

i want
to have
tons.
of.
sex.
while i still want to.

i want
you to watch
the flashes
through my bedroom window.

i want
my fingers
and
heart
to stop aching.

i want
to learn
the lesson
here.

quickly.

Damien Jurado - I Am Still Here

2012-01-07T17:04:00.000-05:00

2012-01-06T00:28:00.002-05:00

Nick is moving to China
and
your best friend Justin
to my right
is a reminder
when
i'm

trying to forget.

maps on the ceiling
and
california in my phone.
and

there are people that
breathe fire.

for a living.

smoking will
make my skin break out.

and here
i thought
i had
nothing to say.

in a bar
tucked away in
Bushwick
with

the
blues.

The Honey Trees - To Be With You (Official Video)

2012-01-04T19:41:00.000-05:00

i might want bangs.
tonight.

2012-01-03T01:40:00.000-05:00

Last meal from my bub.

2011-12-31T17:01:00.000-05:00

Summertime new years eve snowboarding.

Mountain love.

2011-12-27T16:08:00.001-05:00

2011-12-22T20:06:00.000-05:00

Lake Tahoe Christmas.

2011-12-17T14:33:00.002-05:00

snuggle hard
with
the shotgun
in your bed.

christmas comes 4 days early this year.

wake up
to
morning emails
that invigorate
your soul
and
make you
forget about last night.

there are
robots
fucking
distantly.

and

peacocks
pineapples
tomahawks
giraffe mugs
and
puppy dog carriers.

adrian gave me
mexican
medicine
to rub on
my sore hands.

i'm terrified
of
ski lifts
and

going to
the mountains.

Pickup Truck - Kings of Leon - New Song

2011-12-15T09:44:00.000-05:00

2011-12-12T12:33:00.000-05:00

The Antlers - Shiva - A Take Away Show from La Blogotheque on Vimeo.

my face became yours.

2011-12-08T11:32:00.002-05:00

he will speak
to
the sea of us.
without reaching
the high notes.

apologizing
for breakout musicals
while
the floor shakes
from the collective energy
and
memory.

the bowery ballroom transforms
into brownies.
wetlands.
abc no rio.
and all of the places
you left your soul.

over a decade ago.

alone in a crowd.

one should always
be in love
when seeing
their
favorite band.

i wish you were there.

2011-12-06T19:15:00.002-05:00

i know
i will
fallinlove
with you
every day.

over again.

i hate
coming home
to the
cabinets, closed.

2011-12-05T14:43:00.002-05:00

he will sing me love songs
from a
romantic, nebraska restroom.

sleepless wallpaper
after
dirty dreams.

i will re-learn how
to make the bed
and
walk the dog
before work.

reluctantly.

souls know no distance.
we will
fill this divide
with

//0

love.

2011-12-03T22:34:00.002-05:00

have you ever had anything
you wished
you could erase?

i feel like
sylvia.
my head
deep in an oven.

i can't remember anything.
that i was supposed to write here.

we will talk and talk
and
make love
like
it is the last time.

it was the last time, yesterday
and
the day before that.

waking up
with a nicotine patch
attached
to my arm.
keeping
the kitchen cabinets
wide open.
waiting for
our
24th.

our
last
night
in
brooklyn.

2011-12-02T21:04:00.001-05:00

John Laroche: Point is, what's so wonderful is that every one of these flowers has a specific relationship with the insect that pollinates it. There's a certain orchid look exactly like a certain insect so the insect is drawn to this flower, its double, its soul mate, and wants nothing more than to make love to it. And after the insect flies off, spots another soul-mate flower and makes love to it, thus pollinating it. And neither the flower nor the insect will ever understand the significance of their lovemaking. I mean, how could they know that because of their little dance the world lives? But it does. By simply doing what they're designed to do, something large and magnificent happens. In this sense they show us how to live - how the only barometer you have is your heart. How, when you spot your flower, you can't let anything get in your way.

2011-12-02T20:31:00.000-05:00

i miss you.
i guess that i should.

3,500 miles away,
but what would you change if you could?

Christmas.

2011-11-29T21:26:00.000-05:00

2011-11-28T16:54:00.002-05:00

i will
hold my
breath.

for 6 months
or
16 days
that
last 5 years.

we found
a
time machine
in
each other.

and we will
spend the future
on
opposite coasts
living
in the past of
a whirlwind
and
hopeless hope
and
shotguns
and
pocket knives
and
sprite instead of water.

Judy, knows.

Sunday Morning
moment of nature
will
lead me
back
to you.

2011-11-23T14:36:00.002-05:00

this is not a poem.
noah.

this is
the first chapter
of
a book
you'll never read,

for it's written in a
tongue
tangled by
passions.

in
oceans under
half built
suspension bridges
and
across
nameless cities.

buried in powder
atop mountains.

2011-11-22T11:52:00.002-05:00

i am an invisible
blur
in the
morning light
of made beds
and
a kitchen
full of
coffee grinds.

you'll lose
the keys
to your bike
and
$800
and
i'll become
a
french press.

and we'll
have moments
of power
in front of the
bathroom.
puppies
understand.

tuna fish
teeth
and
two toned
metal
hair
and
sore throats
and
iPhone alarms
and
snowboard gear
on open pages
and
fear.

sitting.
knitting.

bub.

mutual
friends
and
avalanche
wake-ups.

Joni Mitchell-A Case of You

2011-11-18T21:42:00.000-05:00

I met a woman
She had a mouth like yours
She knew your life
She knew your devils and your deeds
And she said
"Go to him, stay with him if you can
But be prepared to bleed"

oh, joni.

oh, oh, oh, joni.
i'm
not
prepared.

2011-11-17T21:07:00.001-05:00

alternate side sick day.
one and a half egg sandwiches
at
the kitchen table
with Mac Miller.
writing karma checks
to
lost souls
wearing basketball shorts.

video chats
double stuffed oreos.

DayQuil and cough drops
and
orange Gatorade.

wireless frustration
and
my buzzer rang 4 times.

arguments on
blue chairs
and
in figure skater
lifts too high.

I will take one more day.
if
you
pretend
this
is
worth
it.

James Blake - A Case of You (Joni Mitchell cover) @BBC Radio 1

2011-11-16T20:59:00.000-05:00

2011-11-16T15:51:00.002-05:00

mini lions and mandolines.

for cheese,
not
cucumbers.

manicotti karate.
and
zip lock
bags
duct taped
to
wet park
trees
in the north.

bennet is back
from
switzerland
and
leaving
for LA.

morning chats
from
overnight
daydreams
and
suggestions
that i choose
to
ignore.

it still smells
like
vinyl
and
cigarettes
and
avalanches.

Of Monsters & Men - Six Weeks

2011-11-16T10:07:00.000-05:00

Angus & Julia Stone - Draw Your Swords 2010 (Lyrics)

2011-11-15T17:34:00.000-05:00

let's not fuck around.

2011-11-15T14:01:00.002-05:00

mountain dew and motorbikes.
over the Williamsburg bridge.

up the FDR and down 99th street.

Park ave apartment hunting
under
shimmering lights
behind urban tractors.

street food in midtown
and
police vans lined up on Canal.

lost and found
on
Elizabeth Street
once again.

Australian accents
and
babes waving from
neon lit rooftops
on
Delancy.

keeping shit together
with
newspapers
and
apple cores.

while

hearts
fall
on
Manhattan,
Kansas.

Zola Jesus - Shivers

2011-11-14T16:50:00.000-05:00

New Look.

2011-11-14T09:47:00.002-05:00

2011-11-13T11:47:00.001-05:00

Two worlds colliding.

2011-11-11T11:10:00.001-05:00

11:11:11
11/11/11

what's 3500 miles?

when you have a prehistoric aol account.

and

two clubs.

2011-11-10T16:13:00.003-05:00

basketball and kale.
a love poem.

pineapple lunch dates.
and
coworker curiosity.

a bartender falls off
and
Chest creeps on.

motorcycles ride from long island
to
brooklyn
to
tahoe
to
internet talks
in the am.

amongst all of it.
Sunday.
on
my
brain.

THE LOVIN' SPOONFUL-"DARLING BE HOME SOON" ( W/ LYRICS)

2011-11-09T12:28:00.000-05:00

The Head and the Heart - Rivers and Roads

2011-11-08T17:17:00.000-05:00

2011-11-08T10:05:00.002-05:00

late at night.

a stranger says:

"since shortly i will be safe and sound 3500 miles away, i will say that you are probably the most ridiculous beautiful girl ever. even probably in the history of ever. respectably, i say this, of course. you should know that."

and

other, hyperbole.

and

canceling all of my plans
and
heading to
the observation deck
of
the empire state building
seems like
the only thing to do.

2011-11-07T12:07:00.000-05:00

this is getting interesting.

all of it.

2011-11-04T22:05:00.000-04:00

2011-11-03T11:06:00.001-04:00

found.

2011-11-03T11:04:00.002-04:00

Love is most nearly itself
When here and now cease to matter.
Old men ought to be explorers
Here or there does not matter
We must be still and still moving
Into another intensity
For a further union, a deeper communion
Through the dark cold and the empty desolation,
The wave cry, the wind cry, the vast waters
Of the petrel and the porpoise. In my end is my beginning.

- T. S. Eliot

2011-10-25T23:54:00.001-04:00

Sneak peak...
coming along.

Piebald - You Wont Be Seeing Me Again

2011-10-25T00:06:00.000-04:00

why do i dream out loud to you?

first kiss.

2011-10-24T19:51:00.003-04:00

on the side of a neighbors house, on a humid august afternoon.

on the edge of a dock, in front of the headlights of your borrowed parent's car.

on the couch, in the living room that you share with 6 co-ed genius drunkards.

on the bench of a piano, in a locked concert hall after a performance of Rachmaninov.

on a ladder while installing potato artwork in a haunted carriage house.

in the bar next door to the bitter end, after a night of drinking with your friend ben.

on the sweaty dance floor after the clock struck twelve on a frozen new years eve.

but,

most importantly,

on a crack head bench in union square after a grey dog and rain shower and

love.
forever.

2011-10-21T00:30:00.001-04:00

i
believe
in
love.

catch the wind Donovan

2011-10-19T22:17:00.000-04:00

for my zackiebeangarbanzokalebabe.

Bon Iver - Skinny Love (Das Kapital Rerub) [HQ]

2011-10-19T19:32:00.000-04:00

"in the morning i'll be with you."

Harry Belafonte - Jump in the Line (With Lyrics)

2011-10-18T10:19:00.000-04:00

morning music to the max.

Suckered in By Sirens - Ice Cream Shout

2011-10-17T23:20:00.000-04:00

Aldobrando - The Specials - It's You

2011-10-17T22:13:00.000-04:00

what an interesting day for music.

Return To Me - Perry Como and Dean Martin

2011-10-17T22:05:00.000-04:00

one day, i will know this.

2011-10-17T21:05:00.000-04:00

I used to feel so alone in the city. All those gazillions of people and then me, on the outside. Because how do you meet a new person? I was very stumped by this for many years. And then I realized, you just say, “Hi.” They may ignore you. Or you may marry them. And that possibility is worth that one word”
― Augusten Burroughs

Broken Social Scene - All To All

2011-10-17T11:54:00.000-04:00

2011-10-14T16:09:00.001-04:00

the shower
is no place
to discuss
an
occupation.

it's probably
time
to
let go.

2011-10-03T00:09:00.001-04:00

he is
a neighbors
backyard
after a game of horse
in the
summer of 1993.

i am
6 feet tall
and
one step
closer to
home.

2011-10-01T11:14:00.002-04:00

fleet foxes.
apple juice.
pizza.
online dating.
ponchos.
ravioli.
knitting.
the head and the heart.
vip.
rooftop parties.
radiohead.
onyx.
layoffs.
lunch with coworkers.
yankee playoff game.
in the rain.
calexico.
unanswered texts.
heart necklace.
npr.
nuit blanche.
all
in
a
week.

2011-09-18T00:44:00.002-04:00

i will attempt to inflate the air mattress without reading the directions while you sweep away the mice droppings and we pray that there are no snakes coming through the hole in the wall below the window. we will talk to the neighbor about a hurricane and a red river cresting a week before. i will open the blinds and squeal at the sight of a large spider, that you will take care of while i sweep away the overgrowth on the stairs leading down to the porch. we will leave the dog, eat mexican food and loiter in a bookstore, showing each other things that we think are interesting while we brush up against each other and giggle. we will go to the market for ice, beer, and canned dog food. you will drive and i will be free to feel like everything is, at last, perfect. we will use lanterns and flashlights and sit on chairs and drink and smoke and play games about movies. we will invent a proper way to eat a new brand of oreo and we will watch the ponzi mice run along the baseboard and keep our shoes off of the floor. we will be.

madly in love.

we will be.

real.

if just for one night.

2011-09-08T22:54:00.002-04:00

how does one express their condolences via social networks?

seems shallow.
seems easy.

i'm starting to hate everything.

even mountain dew before bed.

i want to make this.

2011-08-30T22:05:00.001-04:00

2011-08-28T15:48:00.001-04:00

insect genealogy from tiger in a jar on Vimeo.

bench.

2011-08-28T15:25:00.000-04:00

2011-08-24T21:24:00.003-04:00

watching mad men.

now i understand.

who you thought you were.

written in the inside cover of a book.
signed with only your initial.

i wonder how many of us there were.

2011-08-19T21:31:00.004-04:00

i wear
sioux falls, sd.
newport, ri.
bay shore, ny.
and
love. forever.

around my wrist.

in wikipedia
and
under the manhattan bridge.

i will never escape it.

everything is a reminder.
when
you
can
only think

about

one.
thing.

Ambergris by Snowblink

2011-08-10T18:07:00.000-04:00

2011-08-08T21:43:00.003-04:00

every day is an anniversary of something.

unreliable people will never be
something they are not.

put everything in a bag and throw it out your 4th story window.

let it fly with the pigeons
and
get eaten by the rats
along with the poisoned trees
and sidewalks
in
a bullshit city
once romantic.

mail it to sisters
who
don't even
know
you exist.

they'll burn it.
they probably burn everything.
just so they don't have to
live with the fact
that
they are related
to
heartless beings.

august 8th is a beautiful day.
when it isn't today.

2011-08-07T23:23:00.000-04:00

Baby knitting.

2011-08-06T19:29:00.001-04:00

Voluntary detour.
Lindenhurst train station.
Nostalgia.
After
A day
In
Kismet.

2011-08-03T09:52:00.000-04:00

You, you only, exist.
We pass away, till at last,
our passing is so immense
that you arise: beautiful moment,
in all your suddenness,
...arising in love, or enchanted
in the contraction of work.

To you I belong, however time may
wear me away. From you to you
I go commanded. In between
the garland is hanging in chance; but if you
take it up and up and up: look:
all becomes festival!

-Rainer Maria Rilke

2011-07-25T15:09:00.001-04:00

2011-07-25T09:10:00.002-04:00

hot pink dress
road beer
to
a metal show
in
the heat.

hours in bed
with
the AC,
a brave new world,
knitting needles,
and
netflix.

rainbow cookies for
breakfast
and
dinner.

spontaneous trip
out east
with
sharon jones
iron chic
fleet foxes.

hampton bays
disco band
on
a restaurant porch
drinking
dirty martini and pina colada
with
the sun on our backs.

wrong turns
to
ferry piers
with
compromised hands
and
smiling faces.

$10,000 paintings
and
german shepherds
with
birthday cars
in
Sag Harbor.

everything is 10 years ago.

with the windows down.

"Paranoia In B Flat Major" Music Video

2011-07-22T15:13:00.000-04:00

2011-07-20T13:12:00.002-04:00

spots on shoulders
play bocce in the hamptons
and
eat pasta dinners
in the
mid summer heat.

hundreds of dollars
worth
in
car repairs
and
veterinary bills
so
dylan can cross the border.

poopie diapers
and
sidewalk chalk
and

the East Coast Billabong bus.
Raven gives me a hat
and
signs a poster for my nephew.

A Bronx Tale
finally arrives
in the mail.

and

i pray
that
i get
a
new job
tomorrow.

Prisencolinensinainciusol

2011-07-14T15:46:00.000-04:00

2011-07-13T12:14:00.002-04:00

Chris is moving to LA.
and
asparagus weighs heavy in my gut.

you can only explain so much
to others
who do not see through your eyes
and
whose hearts do not beat

next to yours.

belly shirts.
smelly shoes.
corner bars. closed.

97 degrees
and
a fever
make you sweat through your sheets
and
wake up in the evening hours.

garlic knots
through a park
with the junkies
and the skaters
and
the love.

2011-07-01T09:15:00.002-04:00

drinkless birthday
at loreley.
after a free concert
at prospect park.

justin townes earle
videos sent to south dakota.
and
reub is moving to montreal.

tall boys
and
the wait
for the G.

wearing bug spray
and
a gold band.
and
a necklace full of hope.

package from south dakota!

2011-06-29T17:35:00.002-04:00

Elbow - 'Lippy Kids' (Live at Blueprint Studios)

2011-06-29T15:41:00.000-04:00

2011-06-29T08:59:00.000-04:00

getting back into muraling.

2011-06-27T17:25:00.001-04:00

2011-06-27T09:55:00.002-04:00

i always think it's funny when i randomly come across myself on the internet.

here

and

here

summer in the city.

2011-06-25T16:01:00.001-04:00

There's a television in my bathroom mirror. Knowing people has its benefits.

2011-06-24T00:40:00.002-04:00

east village
love affair.

gumby
at the movies
and
on dashboards
that smell like trash.

city summer night.

vegan food
and
sweets.

greeting strangers.
with
similar sarcasm.
and
blue and green gum.

"worth waiting a year."

this past month...

2011-06-23T13:39:00.002-04:00

this past month..., a set on Flickr.

gardening. memorial day bbqing. maloof money cup. haldun visited from around the globe and cooked us dinner. ptl's korean bbq and karaoke birthday. yankees moon. free ferry ride on the new east river ferry. go skate day, nyc. i also managed to fit a weekend getaway to south dakota in there. love my life.

2011-06-23T10:04:00.002-04:00

what is intimacy?

skin upon skin.
breath upon earlobes.

whispering.
words in space.

worms in space.

wearing chastity overalls.

a skateboard
a joint
a girl with her finger up her nose.

a ferry
a tattoo
a package from the midwest.

a haircut
a mountain dew
a shooting on my corner.

cancer
periods
shhhhhhhhhhhh...

2011-06-21T22:35:00.001-04:00

Lizard king is home from tour and making out with Dylan.

Sioux Falls, SD

2011-06-20T16:07:00.001-04:00

Sioux Falls, SD, a set on Flickr.

2011-06-20T08:55:00.002-04:00

coyote on a shelf
judging me
for
moments of weakness.

sioux falls, SD.

pitbull sleepover
hair curling roommate party.

long hair and tattoos.
mustache balm.
with
a lack of pickle juice.

barefoot and formal.
on a porch at 4am.
talking about brooklyn salsa.
and
where i'm spending the night.

skeleton dance.
taco johns.

fat tire
and
a broken e-brake.

SD
LA
NY
MT
CO
NV
WA
new friends.

flying over Chicago.

2011-06-17T16:26:00.001-04:00

This is at the house I'm crashing at in Sioux Falls. Perfect.

2011-06-16T14:40:00.001-04:00

happy bloomsday.

Watch live streaming video from symphonyspace at livestream.com

2011-06-15T17:11:00.002-04:00

i'm knitting a red bowtie
and
washing my hair with pizza bagels.

carlos tamale barks at jose.
and
sioux falls is calling my name.

they are only words.
fonts.
black.
words.
on skin.

Bon Iver - Calgary (official music video)

2011-06-15T09:32:00.000-04:00

this entire album.
this.

this.

makes me think of montreal.

2011-06-13T20:39:00.000-04:00

Mourning the end of basketball with some baseball.

The Antlers - Every Night My Teeth Are Falling Out

2011-06-13T09:53:00.000-04:00

2011-06-11T20:13:00.000-04:00

Pepper tree shade.

2011-06-11T19:07:00.002-04:00

i'd imagine the umbrella industry to be sustainable. people buy umbrellas. often.

umbrellas are not built to last.
with rain, often comes wind, and they tend to flip inside out or blow away and get run over by cars and buses and skateboards and horses.

owners of umbrellas are also bound to put down their wet umbrella and forget it in music venues and restaurants and barber shops and at their therapist's office. (but how many crazy people to you know that actually own an umbrella? i mean, really? think about it.)

i'm going to invent an indestructible umbrella.

but then my business would go under once every person in the world bought one.

catch-22.

perhaps i'll make the umbrella disintegrate after 2 years. 2 years seems like a fantastic life expectancy of an indestructible umbrella. the people would really go for this idea. i bet you the average person purchases at least 2 umbrellas a year.

i say this because i have purchased 3 umbrellas this year.
and i've also "borrowed" one and forgot to give it back.

i bet there are a lot of unknowing umbrella thieves out there.

i can't be the only one.

Soulsavers - You Will Miss Me When I Burn (Razzmatazz 2, Barcelona, 19-1...

2011-06-10T09:01:00.000-04:00