3.31.2011

3.30.2011

Adele - Someone Like You (Live in Her Home)


this.
song.
absolutely.
kills.
me.

3.23.2011

i am a warrior.



i'm gna go ahead and say that she's ripping off one of my favorite poems:

Daughter, by Nicole Blackman

One day I'll have a tiny baby girl
and when she's born she'll scream
and I'll tell her never to stop.

I will kiss her before I lay her down at night
and will tell her a story so she knows
how it is and how it must be for her to survive.

I'll tell her to set things on fire
and keep them burning.
I'll teach her that fire will not consume her,
that she must use it.

I'll tell her that people must earn the right
to use her nickname,
that forced intimacy is an ugly thing.

I'll help her to see that she will not find God
or salvation in a dark brick building
built by dead men.

I'll make sure she always carries a pen
so she can take down the evidence.
If she has no paper, I'll teach her to
write everything down with her tongue,
write it on her thighs.

I'll make her keep reinventing herself and run fast.
I'll teach her to write her manifestos
on cocktail napkins.
I'll say she should make men lick her ambition.
I'll make her understand that she is worth more
with her clothes on.
I'll teach her to talk hard.

I'll tell her that when the words come too fast
and she has no use for a pen
that she must quit her job
run out of the house in her bathrobe,
leave the door open.
I'll teach her to follow the words.

They will try to make her stay,
comfort her, let her sleep, bathe her in a television glow.
I will cut her hair, tell her to light the house on fire,
kill the kittens,
when nothing is there
nothing will keep her
and she is not to be kept.

I'll say that everything she has done seen spoken
has brought her to the here this now.
This is no time for tenderness,
no time to stand, waiting for them to find her.
There are nations within her skin.
Queendoms come without keys you can carry.

I'll teach her that she has an army inside her
that can save her life.
I'll teach her to be whole, to be holy.
I'll teach her how to live,
to be so much that she doesn't even
need me anymore.
I'll tell her to go quickly and never come back.
Things get broken fast here.

I will make her stronger then I ever was.

Turned at twenty
she'll break into bits of star
and throw herself against the sky.

I will not let them destroy her life
the way they destroyed mine.

Never forget what they did to you
and never let them know you remember.

Never forget what they did to you
and never let them know you remember.

3.20.2011

the past 24 hours have been hell.

and

i cannot wait until it is all a distant memory.


there are so many things to look forward to.
starting
now.

3.15.2011

this.

i am so goddamn happy!!!!

a friend of mine lost her 5 month old black lab mix on friday night on long island.
we've been searching ENDLESSLY for him.
i even went to EVERY bar and restaurant in bay shore last night to hand out fliers and spread the word.

THEY JUST FOUND HIM!! 5 days later!!!!

he was in a car at a junk yard down the street.

poor thing!!!

SOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!

never, never, never give up hope!

3.01.2011

i wasn't surprised when he said he was an extra.
he has long hair
a mustache
tattoos.

a temper.

i want to spend the day making mosaics of skulls
and
pineapples.
in a lofted fort.

i'll bring my knitting
to watch the magic beat the knicks.
eat mac and cheese.
consider veganism.



turning 30 means that half of your friends are now in recovery.

but see through dresses were made for
combat boots and cheap beer.