sometimes i laugh out loud.
head in hands, shaking back and forth.

sometimes i burst into tears.
thinking about honesty and deceit.

sometimes i get confused.
by an email.
or
a
g-chat.
or
a
text.

about what it is that you really want to know.

because i've told you everything.

a computer is a very powerful thing.

and

i am the best internet detective.



it's all so unfortunate.

I am on a lonely road and I am traveling
Traveling, traveling, traveling
Looking for something, what can it be
Oh I hate you some, I hate you some
I love you some
Oh I love you when I forget about me
I want to be strong I want to laugh along
I want to belong to the living
Alive, alive, I want to get up and jive
I want to wreck my stockings in some juke box dive
Do you want - do you want - do you want
To dance
with me baby
Do you want to take a chance
On maybe finding some sweet romance with me baby
Well, come on

All I really really want our love to do
Is to bring out the best in me and in you too
All I really really want our love to do
Is to bring out the best in me and in you
I want to talk to you, I want to shampoo you
I want to renew you again and again
Applause, applause - life is our cause
When I think of your kisses
My mind see-saws
Do you see - do you see - do you see
How you hurt me baby
So I hurt you too
Then we both get so blue

I am on a lonely road and I am traveling
Looking for the key to set me free
Oh the jealousy, the greed is the unraveling
Its the unraveling
And it undoes all the joy that could be
I want to have fun, I want to shine like the sun
I want to be the one that you want to see
I want to knit you a sweater
Want to write you a love letter
I want to make you feel better
I want to make you feel free

Want to make you feel free
I want to make you feel free

All I Want.
Joni Mitchell

it doesn't matter.

california.
new york.
connecticut.

why must you lie?

spent the morning
reading
poems from old lovers.

and

trying to remember that person.




the one they were talking about.