why am i so sad about this? yes, I was brought up catholic, and yes, I have no "official" association with any church or religion at this time, and yes, I never exactly believed in the Vatican and it's independent nation of religion, yet...sadness ensues. I think it's more of the fact that it's an end of an era, than the end of a leader. maybe it's because he has the same disease as my father, and it frightens me. I guess I'm sad when anyone is sick and dying...and it's so publicized and dehumanized. death and dying are intimate things, it shouldn't be broadcast. we shouldn't all be watching patiently as this man dies.