i am killing my tv this week.

i have too much to do.
and
so much that i want done.


i spent the weekend being exhausted.

being so busy is a good way to keep my mind off of other things.
things that i, sadly, cannot control.

like
how much i miss you.




because, if it were up to me...
well, it's not.


i lost it this weekend.
i lost it forever.

i searched my sheets.
the street.
the couch.
the bathroom floor.

and cried my cowgirl eyes out.