i wanted him
to stay.
i wanted him
to hold me.
i wanted him to do all of those things that he's so good at.
like
making me smile. big.
and
his words. oh, his words.
how he makes me feel like i am one of the most amazing people that he's ever met.
and
how i believe him.
because i can feel it.
and
because he's never let me down.
i am a lucky girl.
with
a pack of forgotten canadian cigarettes.