i had a dream that i had a daughter.
and
we named her hazel.



called in sick today.




30th
birthday
party
tonight.

always remember there was nothing worth sharing
like the love that let us share our name.

30 years in the making.

everything.


hand holding.
day drinking.
live music.
high heels.
leopard print.
nixon/vice art mosh.
cigarettes.
pizza.
black sabbath.
brunch.
summer stage.
san gennaro.
recliners.
whiskey.
ravioli.
lies.
lies.
lies.
kansas.
city.
siblings.
birthdays.
the L train.
boys.
boys.
boys.
cabs over rivers.
skateboards.
cameras.
open bars.
pretending.





everything.

will kill me.

all i want for my birthday is:


a donut ice cream sandwich.
a basketball.
a skateboard.
a handmade card.
and
a peach.

Friday song.

you can't mail a peach.

Bon Iver
Re: Stacks

this song always stings more than the others.


my phone said connected.
but
there was no ring.
and
then
disconnected.

maybe it's a sign.
maybe it's a blessing.


sundays are always the hardest.







your love will be safe with me.

new.

Like the Wheel.

i love the tallest man on earth.

love love.
love.


love.

in the past 5 days i:

ate cheese doodles.
with steph.
on union.
got high.
sat in the yard at maracuja.
worked my second job.
more than my first.
said goodbye.
to the man.
i was sure would father my children.
picnicked in prospect park.
to celebrate joanna's birthday.
played frisbee.
got dirty.
had a sing-a-long.
to weezer.
and bruce.
in an apt. in crown heights.
before climbing the fire escape.
bbq'd on long island.
with my family.
played volleyball.
in boots.
and
slept on the hammock.
with happy children.
got drunk and sweaty at the vans party at kcdc.
before matt stole me a bike.
and
we danced at savalas.
and crashed karaoke at good & co.
celebrated dylan's 4th birthday.
at the tompkins square park dog run.
before winning a game of horse.
with no net.
ate italian brunch in the east village.
before attending a rooftop party in willyb.
ate 1/2 off mac & cheese at epsteins.
drove over the williamsburg bridge 4 times.
one day.
in two separate cars.
neither mine.
got hired to paint a mural.
met clayton patterson outside of max fish.
he took our photo.
met sarah and sarah.
at the bushwick country club.
with tall boy pbr's.
and
kindles.
spent 3 hours in traffic court.
aka, the pits of hell.
did the dishes.
dressed up like a lumberjack.
made promises i'll keep.
and
wished for more wishes.
wished for more wishes.

winston churchill.

Forever Song.

Friday Song.