one can only wish
so very hard
that the floor does not
buckle
underneath your wobbly knees
whilst
hugging a man
who just lost his child.

i felt the room shift
and
i felt his throat pulse
and
i felt his breath deepen
and
i felt his arms so so so tight
and
i just thought

I CANNOT LET GO.

don't let go.

because there are never
enough
i love yous
when
a piece of your world
just
disappears.

forever.

and there are never enough
stay strongs
or
he's your angels
or
fuck
THIS IS NOT FAIR.




so this is for you.
Jon.
I love you.

use that.
in case of emergency.

and






in case
we carelessly become
soulless bodies
before
our time.